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And he said “Contemplating My Existence”

Last week I went from Jury Duty on Monday and Tuesday to restoration of a fire-damaged McDonalds on Wednesday. Pretty much since then it has been non-stop lets get this thing opened. In a week I have met some new people who I look forward to getting know more. In a week I have learned a lot about running a fast paced job for GCM.

But today, I was reminded how God is working. Sitting at a front counter waiting for some material I needed for my project, I apologized to the man next to me for taking so long. He said no worries, I’ve got time, I’m just sitting here contemplating my existence. My response “wow that is deep.” He said, “yeah I am sorry man.” I said “no problem, just got to be careful what you say out loud, I’m a Pastor and love those kind of conversations.”  He responded with “yeah I know where I am spending Eternity.”

After a bit of silence I said, “glad you got eternity figured out, for me the hardest part is walking the unknown day to day journey.” To which he replied, “yeah that seems to be the hardest part.”  This lead me to talking about why “sharing faith and life” with a community of faith believers is so important. I shared my thoughts on church and he was interested. He said, “I don’t like ‘traditional Churches’.”

The guy next to me then said “so you must not like mega/large churches.” I said, “I simply don’t think there is one model for everyone anymore. We need different types of churches for different stages/seasons of life people are in.” He said, “yeah I’m a pastor too, and I’m out here working like you. I’ve been doing bi-vocational ministry for 10 years. The church I’m a part of has around 100 people and everyone ministers to each other.”  We chatted and the “Contemplating my Existence” guy listened in and said “thanks for conversation”.

Seriously, two Pastors, who are living out their faith and life a bit different in the same store with a man who is Contemplating his Existence. God is working wherever our lives are stationed. He is drawing men and women unto Himself.

Lord help my eyes and ears be open to what you are doing. Help me to be like Christ to those I come in contact with. May the way I live, think, and act be used as seeds of hope and faith in the lives of those I come in contact with in the places I live, work, learn, and play!

 

 

 

Reflecting on Another Birthday

Last Friday I turned 34. It is hard to believe how fast time flies by. Tonight I shared with LifeStation that often I find myself “searching for Jesus”. Some how I find myself growing frustrated that at 34 years of age I don’t have it all figured out. I still have more questions about my future then I do answers. There are days where I feel like I am walking close to Jesus and other days where I feel like I’m not sure that I am on the right path.

With that and with all the uncertainty that lies in front of me if I could have/declare anything as a new 34 year old it is this

My hearts desire, regardless of how I feel, is to have a heart like His.

I will fail.

I will mess up.

I will let myself and others down.

But at the foundation of who I am I just want to be what He wants me to be….I want a heart like His.

Lord Jesus Christ I pray that no matter where my life is stationed this coming year that my heart will continue to beat for you. Lord I pray that no matter what the cost that I will find myself pursuing You and Your Kingdom. Help me to love as you love.

A day of reflection: 12 years of Change

Yesterday was September 11th, 2013.  Over and over again I heard or saw people via social media reflecting on September 11th, 2001.  This caused me to reflect, not only on the condition of our country and world, but on my own heart and how I am not the same as I was 12 years ago.

Several times throughout the day I had to simply stop and say “Thank You God” for You have changed me so much.  12 years ago I sat as a Freshmen in College, watching the Towers fall in shock, disbelief, and quite honestly no idea what just happened.  I began to develop, based on attitudes of others, this heart of revenge.  I got excited when I heard songs coming out like the “Angry American” by Toby Keith.

Oh, justice will be served and the battle will rage:
This big dog will fight when you rattle his cage.
An’ you’ll be sorry that you messed with the U.S. of A.
‘Cos we’ll put a boot in your ass, it’s the American way.    From Cowboylyrics.com 

I have to admit that 12 years later I am in a way different place.  I believe God has been showing me that I believed “The Myth of A Christian Nation.”  Some how I allowed my love for the Country in which I was born and raised to trump my love for God and the Nations in which He created.  I fell in love with an idea.  The idea that because we have Churches in every town and that for a long time many people, including our Presidents, claimed to be Christians, that some how we were more important to God.

Oh, boy.  If you are still reading this I hope that you would understand that I am not trying to condemn you for your love of our country, I am simply saying that I am grateful for the change that God has brought about in my own life.  I am grateful that I can look at my Muslim friend and believe that God is at work in His life.  I am grateful that I am learning to love people from every tribe, tongue, and nation.  I am grateful that God has done this work in my heart because 12 years ago I would not have pictured myself where I am at today.

I am learning to love not just the nations, but others Christians who come from different religious traditions or who have different methods of doing ministry.  I am learning, very slowly to say with Paul:

“It is true that some preach Christ out of envy and rivalry, but others of goodwill….But what does it matter?  The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached.  And because of this I rejoice.”

Yesterday, as I reflected on the past 12 years of my life, I realized that God is developing in me a Kingdom perspective.  He is developing in me a desire to love no matter what the cost.  To love sacrificially, allowing my own preferences and opinions to become less and less important.  He is humbling me and showing me that I do not know or understand as much as I think I do.  I am becoming smaller and my prayer is that in my smallness, HE will increase.

My prayer is that as I become friends with those who are tattooed, drunks, users, abusers, LGTBQ, Democrats, Republicans, materialistic and religious, that somehow God would use me to declare His love.  And maybe some day, 12 years down the road,  they too will be able to spend a day reflecting on how God has changed them.   

Is He changing you?  Take a moment and celebrate because He is good!