Tag Archives: Heart

And he said “Contemplating My Existence”

Last week I went from Jury Duty on Monday and Tuesday to restoration of a fire-damaged McDonalds on Wednesday. Pretty much since then it has been non-stop lets get this thing opened. In a week I have met some new people who I look forward to getting know more. In a week I have learned a lot about running a fast paced job for GCM.

But today, I was reminded how God is working. Sitting at a front counter waiting for some material I needed for my project, I apologized to the man next to me for taking so long. He said no worries, I’ve got time, I’m just sitting here contemplating my existence. My response “wow that is deep.” He said, “yeah I am sorry man.” I said “no problem, just got to be careful what you say out loud, I’m a Pastor and love those kind of conversations.”  He responded with “yeah I know where I am spending Eternity.”

After a bit of silence I said, “glad you got eternity figured out, for me the hardest part is walking the unknown day to day journey.” To which he replied, “yeah that seems to be the hardest part.”  This lead me to talking about why “sharing faith and life” with a community of faith believers is so important. I shared my thoughts on church and he was interested. He said, “I don’t like ‘traditional Churches’.”

The guy next to me then said “so you must not like mega/large churches.” I said, “I simply don’t think there is one model for everyone anymore. We need different types of churches for different stages/seasons of life people are in.” He said, “yeah I’m a pastor too, and I’m out here working like you. I’ve been doing bi-vocational ministry for 10 years. The church I’m a part of has around 100 people and everyone ministers to each other.”  We chatted and the “Contemplating my Existence” guy listened in and said “thanks for conversation”.

Seriously, two Pastors, who are living out their faith and life a bit different in the same store with a man who is Contemplating his Existence. God is working wherever our lives are stationed. He is drawing men and women unto Himself.

Lord help my eyes and ears be open to what you are doing. Help me to be like Christ to those I come in contact with. May the way I live, think, and act be used as seeds of hope and faith in the lives of those I come in contact with in the places I live, work, learn, and play!

 

 

 

Facebook Message Reminded Me- UnKnowing Impact

This week I received one of the most impactful FaceBook messages I have ever received.  Someone who I had brief interaction with several years ago sent me a message simply to let me know how his life has changed. I had no IDEA the impact my life had on him.

My desire is to encourage followers of Jesus to declare a different way to live life where ever our lives are stationed. To believe this God has asked me to step out of my comfort-zone. I am in the most challenging season of my life and sometimes I wonder how does one really make a difference for God.

The FaceBook Message I got came at the right time. See, in my heart I believe that no matter where our lives are stationed, we can have an impact for God, but often I hear a different message. Despite having moved away from full-time paid ministry over a year and a half ago, sometimes I still hear voices from my past that basically say, “to really make a difference for God you have to be a pastor or missionary.” There are days when I feel like this. There are days when I wrestle and say is this statement right? Maybe full time ministry is the only way to have an impact.

But this Facebook Message reminded me that often followers of Jesus can unknowingly have impact on the lives of others. I was reminded that 6 years ago I simply went out and spent some time with a young man. I don’t remember much about that day. I remember basketball and then going back to drop him off at his house. His parents where home so I went in to introduce myself. And this is where the impact happened.

The Facebook Message states that as I entered his home the dynamics of his household changed. The brief time we spent together was the start of transformation in his family. …”our faith has been spreading. And the wake up call all began that day when you took me out and came in to meet my family. You personally have been an extreme blessing to my family, with your presence alone you changed the dynamics of it for the better.”

I write this for one purpose. I write this because this helps me to continue to believe that no matter where our lives are stationed we can declare a different way to live life. As we share our faith and lives with others, “our presence alone can bring about change.”

It is the desire of our hearts that is key. My prayer is that we would be able to trust God with the impact our lives make. We don’t need to compare. We don’t need to have a list of people we have brought to church. It doesn’t even matter how many people you have “saved.”  What matters is the desire of your heart. Because maybe, you’re unknowingly having an impact.

Reflecting on Another Birthday

Last Friday I turned 34. It is hard to believe how fast time flies by. Tonight I shared with LifeStation that often I find myself “searching for Jesus”. Some how I find myself growing frustrated that at 34 years of age I don’t have it all figured out. I still have more questions about my future then I do answers. There are days where I feel like I am walking close to Jesus and other days where I feel like I’m not sure that I am on the right path.

With that and with all the uncertainty that lies in front of me if I could have/declare anything as a new 34 year old it is this

My hearts desire, regardless of how I feel, is to have a heart like His.

I will fail.

I will mess up.

I will let myself and others down.

But at the foundation of who I am I just want to be what He wants me to be….I want a heart like His.

Lord Jesus Christ I pray that no matter where my life is stationed this coming year that my heart will continue to beat for you. Lord I pray that no matter what the cost that I will find myself pursuing You and Your Kingdom. Help me to love as you love.

A part of the problem or solution?

As I begin to call York home, I have had many eye opening conversations about the Church of York and the shape it is in. The past several months I have met so many people from religious backgrounds. It has me wondering “how can a city and county that has so many Churched people be in the condition it is?”

You know what I have found.  The Church is actually part of the problem.  We have become people who know all about God but are lives have not been transformed.  Just today I meet with two young women who were quoting me scriptures left and right, but their lives are a wreck.  Honestly my heart broke. They had a form of godliness, but their hearts seemed hard.

I’ve meet more then a few people who are scarred to death of the City.  They have nothing good to say about our public schools.  And they are pulling out.  But if we really believe what we say we believe shouldn’t we be jumping in?   Shouldn’t we become part of the solution?  I have no idea how God is going to use me to impact this City and County but I am jumping.  I am going to be part of  the solution.

So right now I am focused on building relationships.  I am getting to know neighbors, business men and women, local non profits, and government officials.  I am not an expert, but I having a willing heart and I believe that my God is the solution.